I did something bad

Wind pulled on her dark hair. Te circles under her eyes weren't dissapearing in the slightest. The sand feeling coarse under her bare feet, but it gave her some stability. A certain feeling of being alive as it slipped through her. She had been here for how long.. maybe a week, but it could easily be a month or two. She didn't feel at home, yet she felt saver than ever before. It was as if a new sun had risen for her. A new meaning. Her mother was dead. She left her family in the pits of crisis. But she had found something new. Something better. Or perhaps it was the tiredness talking to her. Whispering in her ear that she would be okay before it would swallow her hole and pull her down into the depths of hell. And if hell was coming. Let it burn her alive.

She was done. No matter how much she told herself that she could go home. Or that she would be okay out here on her own. She knew that it was a lie. It was only a matter of time before she would find out herself that she was lost. And if she did she'd realise that there was no way home. That there was no redemption. No Arc to save her from this flood she had brought upon herself.

Absentmindedly she played around with the waves of the seawater. Making them rise a bit higher. Crash a bit harder. It was one of the rare moments that Ares left her alone though she was sure the royal guard wouldn't be far. Wether it was for her protection or to keep her from hurting anyone including herself she did not know. But she knew that if anything.. she wasn't alone anymore. And maybe that. In a simple way. Was already enough..

-Thriumph first-