[M] Curse me with your love

HE FELT IN LOVE WITH A WOMAN

NO, I HEARD IT WAS THE SEA HE FELL IN LOVE WITH

Ever since her appearance on the ship he was working on the two of them have never been apart. Except from the moment he had to do his jobs inside the castle. Maybe it was his wild mind that did not want to connect with her and get to know her. He was so focussed on his own life and his own needs that he forgot those of others. And for a few weeks he was okay with that. He was okay with the fact that he knew a princess but slept with so many other girls. But once he got to know her better he could handle her stormy actions more and more. When he finally came to realise that those two souls where more alike than he ever would have imagined. It was already too late to turn back time. His actions where already noticed and he could not blame anyone but himself for that.

The fact that she pointed out that there was no privacy at all in this castle made him feel like he could throw up. But it was true, and even he had to realise it. He would not mind to hold her in her arms all day. With a bottle of rum around his lips and the salty sea breeze in his hair. Life would be so much better once he could take her out off this cage and free her spirit. But for that he had to regain her trust and respect. Something he could not handle easily. But the fact that there where eyes lurking everywhere did not made it any easier.

As he felt her body lean against his somewhat closer his hands made their way towards her back and rested there for the moment. Her raven black hair almost seem to glisten under the soft light of the sun that was coming in the room. Unable to say another word her let her continue her words. Some slow nods where noticeable to let her know that he was in fact listening and not drifting away with his mind again.

Behind those large stronghold walls she kept her feelings hidden. Large steel walls filled with concrete and spikes. The girl kept herself strong and a mask on her face all the time. And she had to. For the high society she was living in was unforgivable. He had seen that ever since they arrived in the golden city. Everyone put up their own stories, decorating them with the most beautiful flowers, daggers and blood. But in the end most of the people in town where the same. Desperate to make up their perfect imaginary lives. Only to impress others instead of themselves. Rhys felt somewhat sorry for the life he instead had been living. Ever since he gave his place away as a duke he was free to go wherever he wanted. Roam the seas, hoist te colours, lie in the greasy sand of the beaches of Isla the Juegas. Visit every corner of the land. And for what? To enjoy his life to the fullest. No boundaries, no bridges to cross, no mask he had to wear. ”Look at me. The quietness that filled the room after she finished her words became alive again. Her faded smile had made place for her lips that started moving again. And she did not need to say that a second time. For he had placed his golden spark into hers again. Drowning.

Rhys moved his right hand up and placed his hand around her jawline. Letting his thumb rest on her cheek. He was all eyes and ears for her. And once she pointed out how ‘pathetic’ she must be in his eyes a watery smile placed around his lips. But he let her continue her sea of words. Emptying her stormy mind. And for the first time since they met he could even feel the grief she felt. Or at least; that’s how her words came to him. Hey you, he whispered stroking with his thumb over her porcelain skin. Don’t you ever dare to talk like that about yourself. he continued in all honesty. They love you, no matter what you have done no matter what you will do. You are just different then the rest of the people in the castle. You are a gem, a diamond. And they may sometimes be misaken for worthless pebbles. But in the end they are worth so much more. You are worth so much more to me Robin. He tried to stay focussed on her pink eyes as he finished his words and as his lips stopped moving his other hand made his way up to rest in her hair. His heart was almost beating in his throat once he finished the last words of his sentence. Maybe this was the first time he was being completely honest to someone. And as he let his thoughts about their moments together trail through his mind again he knew it:

She is a goddess and she doesn’t even know it herself.

HE FELT IN LOVE WITH A WOMAN

NO, I HEARD IT WAS THE SEA HE FELL IN LOVE WITH

His fingers where still entangled in her raven hair, his other hand was still placed around her cheek, stroking gently over her porcelain skin. He wanted to stay like this forever. But he also knew they had to be gone before anyone would enter this room. Or else, they heads would be on a stake.

But before he could even begin about it Robin her voice was already filling the room with an unsure tone in her voice. He waited a few seconds but kept his eyes focussed on hers. Wait.. what Rhys tilted his head and looked at her suspiciously as he released the grip around her body somewhat and made the distance between them somewhat larger. You want me to leave Archeon? he continues as he narrowed his eyes. Women, they where creatures he would never understand a thing about. Firstly they wanted you to do or say something. And then a few seconds later they want you to change everything. And right now she wanted him to take her along on his journeys. I don’t think your father will be happy when he hears I have left and I took you with me. I am still a prisoner here robin. he bashed back at her and after his words died into thin air a sigh escaped from his lips. It was not that he did not want to leave the castle. In fact, he had been planning an escape for weeks. But it was hard to find the right hallways and escape routes. Everywhere he looked there where guards lurking around the corner. He could have wiped them out but that would make him suspected. And the last thing he wanted was to have the kingdom of Valyria on his heels.

He wanted to leave the castle from the first day he had set foot in the gigantic golden city. This was not his home and the isolation in the desert made it even worse. As if he was trapped inside this enormous sandcastle.

You do not care if we would be wed or not? Rhys narrowed his golden eyes and stepped away from her. Towards the cabinet with alcoholics and poured some of the golden fluid into the empty glass. Turning the glass from left to right, his eyes were mesmerised by the golden liquid that was captured inside the translucent material. Depending on how the light broke on the surface of the drink, the colour changed from a dark and deep ember to a light, almost honey like gold. It reminded him of the storm that was always being held at sea and in his mind, even on the good days he had. There were moments he suddenly woke in the realisation that he could not remember if he used to have more good than bad days. Most of the time, though, he couldn’t even differentiate between what was a good day and what was a bad one. Whilst Robin her words crashed into his mind he let some of the fluid run down his throat. His eyes closed away from her he let her last words find a place in his weary mind.

And once again, silence overtook the two souls. The tempting feeling that was there only seconds ago had disappeared with the women her words. And he thought back at the day the king told them he wanted to marry him off to his daughter has been quite the event. He had met her on the ship he was sailing on. And from that moment everything happened so fast that he was barely able to let all the thoughts sink down. One moment he was a quartermaster, the next moment a criminal and one moment later he was married off to a princess. And all she could say about it was that she did not care if they will be wed yes or no and that he had to take her with him. As if he was some kind of babysitter.

Rhys opened his eyes again and an unpleasant smirk was placed around his lips. Does this whole 'thing' even mean anything to you at all? he slowly and softly replied. Maybe he was the one who had fallen for her too easily. He was wondering if all those words he just said and ment had actually ment something to her, or was she just playing games with his mind again. Maybe she only wanted him to get away from this castle. And if that was the case he would be done with her.

HE FELT IN LOVE WITH A WOMAN

NO, I HEARD IT WAS THE SEA HE FELL IN LOVE WITH

A soft sigh  came from his lips as he opened the bottle on the cabinet and poured in some drinks. But before he could pour in some liquid for robin she had already placed her hands around one of the glasses which she had filled richly with alcohol. If it would be wise that would be another question. Rhys turned his head towards Robin and watched her swallow the liquid as if it is nothing. Maybe she tried to drink her courage in, but he decided not to make more thoughts about it. And took some large sips from the alcohol.

He didn’t knew how but in some way he had completely misunderstood her words. Maybe it was because of room they where standing in right now. It gave them both some tension. Tension of getting caught, tension of her father or mother walking in. They both did not knew what could happen. The only thing Rhys knew was that he had misjudged her intentions completely. Rhys turned his body towards her and placed the glass back on the cabinet. He made his way towards the lady again who suddenly seemed a little strained. He saw her watery eyes and could not help it but to lift his hand up and place one around her cheek. I think you feel enough to know what you want. But I don’t think it is the best option to give up on everything. He tilted his head a bit so he could look her in her eyes again. You have a family that loves you deeply he continues. Wishing that his family was so close as hers is. A painful bolt of lightning struck through his limbs when he thought about his parents and brother. But he decided to ignore it for now.

Her words had hit him deeply. More than she would probably ever know. He would not speak them out in the end because he was too afraid to show his true feelings towards her. Because deep down. He knew that he wanted her, he longed for her and that she was the only thing in the world that could make him happy. But he was just too scared.. the coward. As she looked down towards the ground he moved his hand towards her chin only to make her look up into his eyes again. I want you Robin he sighs. It was all he could bring out right now.

Love, it was a treacherous thing, a cruel and strange feeling. It could sweep you from your feet in an instant or give you the most terrible feeling in your belly. It was something Rhys had never experienced. Not in all those years he was at sea, not in all the years he was on land. So when Robin her words rolled over her rosy lips he froze. Froze for the feelings he felt for her and the things that would come after the words where spoken. It made him feel weak and he hated the feeling of being a weak and unstable being. But why out off all the people in the world it had to be her that made him feel this way? Was this what love should supposed to feel and look like? Or was she playing tricks with his mind again. Love. It was so final and he did not knew if he was ready for that.

HE FELT IN LOVE WITH A WOMAN

NO, I HEARD IT WAS THE SEA HE FELL IN LOVE WITH

He was always wondering what kind of thoughts and things would cross a woman's mind. What kind of deep and introvert feelings a woman could hide in her dreamy mind. A maze full of puzzles to discover and maybe too hard for a man to untangle.

the few attempts to reassure her with words has made it’s small efforts. She never answered his words but he knew she was thinking about it. He knew she wasn’t that dumb to just leave her family behind and travel to an unsafe world where he could probably not protect her. Maybe. Maybe it was what she wanted deep down. But Rhys could not let it happen. He could not risk her being hurt. Not for himself, not for her family and not for both of them as a couple.

Not long after that he told her that he wanted her. It where four small words but could mean so many things at once and perhaps he had to speak more clearly towards her but this was all that he could speak out right now. Perhaps none of his acquaintances and family members would have ever thought he could fell in love with someone so deeply. The boy has always been too busy, to outgoing and too adventurous to settle with someone. And love has always been too serious for him. But still he felt it, but he was too afraid or maybe even to proud to acknowledge it and just say it out loud.

He was struggling with himself even more than he would have thought. Maybe it was selfish but at least he was being honest. right?

His gold eyes never left her face but Rhys watched her pink eyes drift off again. Carefully he raises his hand and caresses the soft skin of her face with the back of his hand, and as Robin let herself lean against his body he let his hand sink into her Raven black hair. He could almost feel the radiating heath that came from her body. And for a second or so he closed his eyes. Simps enjoying the short moment they had together. But his mind was never at ease. Not with her around. Her words kept ringing into his ears and haunt him for the rest of these little moments. He knew it all too well that this girl had captured him from the moment he met her on deck. She had captivated him with her spells, her piercing eyes and sharp tongue. It all started as nothing serious, but became so much more before long. His eyes where still closed, too afraid to open them and see the vows her had to make. His free hand was raised up and placed around the lowest part of her back. Only to press her more against him. He hides his face in her dark hair and presses a kiss on the soft curls. Such beauty he whispers as he moves his fingers in her hair his face still hiding. I don’t just ‘want’ you for myself. he sighs as his whisper came to an end and he tries to recollect his words. Rhys pulls his hands up and makes sure Robin stood steady he let his hands glide over the side of her arms as he creates some distance between them. He picks up one of her hands and makes sure she is looking at him again. Perhaps, I can't be what you want me to be, but together. You and I. We are golden. his throat is dry, his words are shivering but it didn’t matter. It clearly didn’t matter the moment wasn’t perfect for others. But for him it was.

Marry me, Robin.

Hear me roar.

It was scary to be so honest to another person. Especially when you’ve had to many bad encounters with one another. And for that Rhys could feel his nerves stir up from the lowest point of his feet towards the crown of his hairs. Every muscle in his body told him that he had to say these words. And speak them as if he truly ment them. And in fact he did. He did not want to marry her because of these stupid arrangements her father had made. He did not want to let him win this game. He told her that he ‘perhaps’ could not be what she wanted him to be. He was no lord, no prince, he held no lands, no titles and had no home. It was just the ship that he worked on that he had called home. But right now. he was not so sure if he would ever return to his old job. But maybe, when times would pass, eventually someone would want to let him go. After all he was now a fiancé to a princess. That should mean something, right?

A soft but warm sigh run down his lips as he looked down on the small and fragile princess. Her pink eyes where still preaching in his golden ones. The words he just spoke out; shivering and with a lot of nervousness had died into the air and had taken a certain silence with it. That kind of silence where you did not know if things where getting awkward or not. And right now, he was still struggling with his feelings. So even the small silence had fell, it did not matter for him. He could clear his mind for a few seconds and think about what he really wanted. And that was his freedom and this girl besides him.

His hand was raised as he pushed another black lock behind her ear and his gold eyes tried to find her gaze again. But it did not take too long for her to reply as her voice which was barely more than a whisper filled the room with sounds again. She places her hand in his neck and immediately presses her lips on his again. Which he gladly answers with another kiss from his side. He moves his lips over her soft ones and closes his eyes. Only to be drifted away in the moment again. His hand was lifted and with the back of it he trailed against her cheeks only to stop in the nape of her neck tangled into her raven black hair. He could not help it but smile a little between their kisses and finally he was able to unlock his lips from hers and places a soft kiss on her forehead. His other hand found her back and he presses her against him only to feel her body close to him again. For that was what he desired the most right now.

Hear me roar.

Totally moved away from this planet and caught up in the moment he almost missed that Robin had broken the kiss between them. For moments it felt so good. Being the only two persons in this room and nothing else mattered around them. Not that his father in law or soon to be mother in law could enter the room, not that a maiden or guard could ruin their time together. Not even that he was locked in this castle. But as he got dragged back into reality again his golden eyes where opened and he looks down on the little witch that was still close to him. She murmurs some words and he decides to nod slowly. His head was still dizzy from the touches they exchanged earlier. But she was right, they had to leave this room or else they both would lose their heads. If he was correct the king and queen were fond of their private space so intruders would be taken care of. He nods again and looks down as his hand found it’s way down over her shoulder and her collarbone, which he felt trough the fabric of her dress. Let’s leave he whispers as his gaze trails over her perfect but a little worried face. Let’s go to the sea.. he continues as he holds his breath and folds his other hand around her chin making sure she would look up to him. Come with me, my love. The last words where spoke softer and he let them die with a soft sigh over his lips. But they were ment. Every letter was ment for her and only her. I know it is something you longed for. And I can answer that desire with all that I have. The hand that was placed on her shoulder found his way down and reached for her hand. His hand was folded around hers and he moves himself back towards the door. Slowly. Dragging her within his movement. You know the way.